i shall talk abt training tis morning. it wasnt reali a training bt a ceremony to welcome the sec1s into NCC and the sec3s getting their CPL ranks. the start of training, i try nt to raise my voice. i let my part (sec3s) do wat they wan and i nvr scold them, i thought since u all are alreadx in NCC for the 3rd yr,u all will noe the basic discipline. looks like u all proved mi WRONG!! i look at the sec2s, they can do better den u, which part of fall-in dun adjust u all dun understand. which part of 'adjustments cut' u all dun understand. before the ceremony start, i told myself nt to let u all perspire so much, dun punish u all bt if i dun do anything u all will tink tat im jus a person wearing a SSG rank, doing nth. infront of mi, when the timer say adjusments cut still can move around, chit-chat as if this is ur hse. i pump u all 40, do u tink i wan it. no seniors would like to see their cadets suffering bt if shit is produce den u will get shit for us. Iin NCC, wat does our pledge says : "To maintain a high standard of discipline" bt i dun see tat in anyone of you. during the ceremony, u noe hw humiliated am i by u all and do u noe hw the sirs and seniors will look at mi. when the cadets are doin the wrong things, the instructors always gets the blame. so doesnt mean u are the instructors means u r save frm everything. all ur marching during the ceremony are like f**k and u all dun even noe hw to stop. i tink i reali am a failure, takin tis part to tis standard...haix...

aft normal trainin, had PDS. it have been quite sometime since i played wif the rifle. no choice, kana force to join in the performance. had last min prac den teach the cadets. there are some potential ppl bt i dunno wat to say abt them...

the whole week was basically jus plain boring and slacking. i slept through ALL and i repeat ALL my A Maths lessons becos it was jus too hard to keep my eyes on the board. fri had sports day, as usually, im on councillor duty. it wasnt reali boring becos we were joking and playing wif Mr Loh (DM) den there was some big commotion lah, if anybody wan to noe wat is it abt come and ask mi, i am too lazy to type it here.

i tink i will stop here, i seriously dunno wat to type le. byebye.

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