im back aft some time bt i dun reali feel as good as ever. now i cant do anything properly,my studies,CCA and other stuffs. i reali jus feel like giving up everything i hv now,i jus feel veri useless. can anyone help mi or tell mi wat to do??

i jus found out jus now tat i cnt sing,mayb i shld jus quit choir n dun keep on embarrassing them. Useless is the onli word tat i use to describe myself....There is alot of questions in my mind now and im trying to get answers for all of them bt i jus found out tat it is nt easi to do it.

I jus feel like...............

ytd sch started off quite well,nothing much. had monthly Mass in the morning den went for POA lesson. during less,it was so fun lor,the relief teacher damn nice to joke wif...haha..the teacher ask mi 1 question,can u tell mi something special abt urself? Guess wat i told her,i like GUYS...haha...i hug partner sittin beside mi to prove it and i told the teacher tat HE is my lover...lol...it veri funny lah,the whole class the best POA lesson i ever attend...time pass so fast when we are all havin fun man,1hr jus pass like tat...i went for my Chem class aft tat, colleted my test paper and im quite happy wif the results,24 upon 25 the best so far for all my subjects (except for my A Math)...when through lesson quite seriously,takin in watever i can absorb frm my teacher...lol...one of the teacher i respect the most...recess aft Chem,ate bread that i brought frm home,im saving money now (for some personal reasons). had the lesson i hate the most aft recess CHINESE!! bt time pass quite reasonablely lah,nt as slow as Eng...haix...went home aft tat at 1pm...

came back to sch aft changin into my NCC uniform,trainin started at 2pm, my frens and i had to plan a orienteering trainin in 1hrs time. at 1st i thought it was too short bt when i started to plan wif my frens,it onli took us 10mins...haha...fast leh,6 checkpoints in sch. my sec2s had the trainin and aft 45mins finally all the groups return,take so long lor...lol...i had to leave earli becos i goint o the sch chior concert at CHIJMES.. before i left,i did 500 chain push ups wif them. when i was doin, i felt veri happy instead of tired. tis is the first time im so bonded together wif my cadets...

met my frens at hougang mall,had our dinner den head to CHIJMES. in the MRT, one of my frens kick my toe so hard jus becos i shouted the word 'Condom'. i shouted it becos another fren off mine ask mi abt my phone cover mah...lol...anyway,the concert when quite well sang quite beautiful lah....haha...

stop here now,dunno wat to write le...lol...haha...

Yoz everyone!! todae is wed finish sch started as usaul bt was different frm the rest of the days. veri busy morning,my seniors and some of my frens were doing their morning patrolling and they found ppl smoking at the D&T block. The smokers ran away when they saw my frens bt one of them was still recongnize. during the morning assembly,the class which the person was,was called behind to the carpark to hv their bag's check.im nt sure of wat was found becos i was inside the toilet doing patrolling...LOL...

I tink nothing could be found so we decided to launch a surprise check on the class behind tat and guess wat,we found a lighter on someone and a pack of cigarettes on another person. the two guys was send to the office den suddenly a stupid fren of my stood up and say tat the box was his and he was also send to the office. i noe tat the box wasnt his bt i was like tryin to cover up for someone. i onli noe the details till here so if anybody wan to noe more,can jus approach the DM...haha...

Signning off,cya guys soon!! :)

PS:Dear, I Love You!!