Just came back from my first camp as a Cadet Officer. I tell you, really can die. The cadets will keep anybody taking them can. Now i understand what teachers got to go through to handle students.

The cadets were all secondary one, going through their first NCC camp in HQ. They didn't know anything at all, no clues to what they are going to expect and the rules & regulations. Teaching and handling them is no joke, seriously. I scolded them like don't know how many times but they still go back to their old ways. I also don't know what to do with them. Ask them to do something, it took them like double the time that they are suppose to complete. Really can die man.

Too bad for them in the end, both of the days, the sky turned dark and started to rain. CAT 1 for both days. But it also wasn't very good for us PCs. We got to find programmes to entertain them, which was like quite difficult for me. I'm not very good with impromtu things de, especially asking me to entertain people. In the end, most of the time we settled for TCS (talk cock session). I usually don't talk much de lah, is my friends and offiicers who do all the talking.

First time doing camp, wasn't as easy as I thought. But I can say it was a good experience. Things that I took for granted as an cadet is now the job of mine. I didn't know that I got to take care and do so many things. But I think I did quite ok lah, for my first time. I admit that I commited a lot of mistakes (and I mean A LOT), but I guess this is how we learn bah. Next time, I will do a better job and not commit the same mistakes again.

NEXT STOP : SPECIALIST COURSE.

Feelings

Feelings, nothing more than feelings,
Trying to forget my feelings of love.
Teardrops rolling down on my face,
Trying to forget my feelings of love.

Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.
I wish I've never met you, girl;
You'll never come again.

Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,
Wo-o-o, feel you again in my arms.

Feelings, feelings Like I've never lost you
And feelings like I've never
Have you again in my heart.

Feelings, for all my life I'll feel it.
I wish I've never met you, girl;
You'll never come again.

Feelings, feelings like I've Never lost you
And feelings like I've never have you
Again in my life.

Feelings, wo-o-o feelings,
Wo-o-o, feelings again in my arms.
Feelings...

Valentine's Day had already pass. The hot topic of last week. LOL. Everyone will be like asking if you have gone out on a date and stuff. As usual, I don't have lah. Only that day, Daryl, Eunice and Jason came over to my house in the afternoon to chill out.

Time is passing so fast when you are doing nothing. Look at your calendar, it is already like towards the end of February. Next week is already the last week. I can't believe it man, means school is going to like start in another 1.5months time?

I guess I didn't really accomplish much during these few months of holiday. The only thing I did was only going to the gym and practically, thats all. And even going to the gym, there isn't much difference made to my body. Damn sian can. I still need to buck up on my running and pull ups. And i'm only left with 3 months the most?

Anyway, went for SAR21 Trainfire on Monday. I think I really suck at teaching. I was like one of the first to start teaching, but it turns out that I finish the last. My technical handling of the weapon really suck also lah. I thought I can remember but when I stand infront of the cadets, I just forget the things that should be taught to them. This Friday going to range, hope I will do better than the trainfire bah.

It is just this feeling that I have inside me, indescribable to many and myself. It happens everytime when I turn on my computer, it just does.

Why am I feeling this way?
I thought I have already convince myself about this?
Why is this still coming back?
Or is it something new?

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. No programmes on though. Actually, every year also got nothing on de lah. I will come online, then see who is online, and ask them why aren't they out. LOL. Seems quite contradicting lah, cause I ask them why they are online, but I myself also. Haha.

I just don't feel good these few days. Quite sian at home. Maybe is cause I got too much time to think of funny stuff. Somethings are really not what I expected it to be. Maybe I got different expectations bah.

All the best...

Didn't do much for the past week I would say. Was just slacking at home the whole days through. Went abit of gym here and there lah. Fell down and hurt my knee, so didn't manage to do on any running. I'm damn scared that I cannot get my NAPHA before June sia. If cannot get, means bye bye to my C/OFFR rank.

There was another class chalet last week, at changi there. This time the place was bigger or should I say, DAMN BIG. Got like 4 rooms and each room is like 2 times my house living room? LOL. I reached there about 6pm? I cancelled my piano lesson specially to go sia. Reach there, sit in the dinning area and talk to some of them for awhile, since also haven't prepare the BBQ stuff mah. After the chat, we went out to start the fire and BBQ. So many of us, and we use like 1 hour to start fire? Like we damn useless lah. Haha. Still got uniform group de there some more. After ther fire started, BBQ-ed abit, then went into the dinner area again. Didn't get to eat much lah, I think got not enough food. 8kg of chicken to feed almost 30 people or even more than that? I left at about 10pm, didn't want to stay over.

Last Sunday, went out to watch movie with Eunice, Rena, Daryl and Jason. Suppose to be because of Louise thats why we go out de, in the end, she said she don't need go liao. But now become I have to buy things, so we still went lah. First stop was beach road, bought all the stuff that I need to buy and it comes out to a grand total of $166.50. Thats a lot of money can. But nevermind lah, can claim. Haha. Then was deciding wheather to go Vivocity or Plaza Singapura. Since Vivocity is just one straight bus there, we went there lah. A lot of people there on Sunday sia, but luckily we got seats for the show. When we reached the queue-ing area, there was like a lot of people lah and I scared we couldn't get tickets. In the end, I think most of the people infront watch the benjamin buttons that show. We got 1 hour before the show start, so we went to the basement to get some snacks.

The movie wasn't fantastic lah. Although I like the jokes, they were quite funny. Haha. Now I understand why it was rated NC16. The whole show was just like sexual reference all the way lor, nothing PG at all de. The plot was quite expected also. I think out of 5, I will only give a 2? Didn't really meet my expectations lah.

After that, went to Hougang Mall where Rena and Euncie had Long John Silver. Jason went off to help Melvin play for his mass. So only left the 4 of us. Daryl and I didn't eat, cause we were suppose to meet up with Selene afterwards for some teochew dinner thing. Before we went to Long John, the 4 of us were like idiots at the "rooftop" can. We were waving to Louise from across the road and she die die also don't want to open her windows. Like damn lame lah, ask you open, just open lor. At least we know it is you mah.

After eating and stuff, Rena and Eunice went to take bus while Daryl and I walked back to church. The teochew dinner thing at Selene's house there was like rubbish lah. Ask you go watch opera and the food is only 1 plate of beehoon with curry vegetable and some fried stuff. I thought it will be some porridge where we self service de. Didn't expect it to be this. We didn't stay for the show lah, after eating only we left liao. Damn tired after the whole day out lah.

I'm very lazy to blog nowadays, but I guess I got to type something bah. Maybe I can blog abit about the STAC 35th Anniversary that has just passed last Saturday.

I have already update photos on the SJB blog lah, but I think I will upload 1 or 2 here also. Haha. Friday, Jason and I went to Selene's house to help out with the cake. Actually, only Selene and I doing lah, cause by then Jason come, we already finish doing liao. Left her house at about 10pm, cause the ice-cream didn't seem to freeze fast enough for us to do at the night itself.

Saturday morning, Jason and I went over to do the cake. In the end, we redo everything from scratch. After that went to Rena's house earlier to play. SORRY EUNICE to make u wait so long. Played a lot of things here and there. Went to pick up many people too. Haha. We (Jason and I) we alsoasked to play piano for her parents' guests. LOL. After that, because I don't have the things that we needed for the slideshow, I went home to get it. Reached back Rena's house again at 5pm. Touch up the slideshow show until about 6pm, then went down to the function room liao. Set up and stuff, then we started with all our programmes.





I really want to thank everybody who made this event a success. Thanks Rena for offering her place too. :)