since sch started,i hv been feelin veri down and i guess the reasons are tat i hv nt been able to spend time wif my family and especially my dear...i apologize truely frm the bottom of my heart to everyone that i hv hurt...

i jus wan everything to be the same as before.

Im sorri tat i hv nt been able to spend time wif you and i promise tat i will now leave all my time to you and onli you...i hv been tinkin abt it everyday and i feel reali veri bad abt it,i sometimes reali do nt noe wat to do and i jus feel like.........

im back again,it a sat aftnn and i dun noe wat to blog abt. the weather is reali hot man,cant stand it im perspiring even in Mac...lol...can someone stop tis crazy weather,sometimes hot sometimes cold...haha...mayb can ask GOD to help...lol...

sch is starting in 1day time,im reali excited abt it and i dunno why im feeling tis way...lol...mayb is i cant wait for my taking-over parade tis year,i hv been waitin 2 1/2 yrs for tis and now it my turn le...haha....reali cant wait for it,tis fri...i havent finsh my maths homework yet leh,when i look at it i feel like sleepin...lol...bt im tryin veri hard to push myself to do le,abit day by day bt there is seriously too mani questions to do le...A MATHS,EMATHS!! mayb i shld jus copy frm my frens when sch reopens??

i will write till here bah,quite sleepy le...goin to bed for awhile den tonite my father's lawyer fren is coming....haha...Lawyer leh...lol...

Cya all soon,Cheers everyone

another week till end off holiday...haix,sian...i hv been too invole in my NCC le and i apologize to everybody abt it for missing sectionals and other stuff...

i jus sumarize wat i did for the whole mth. for the 1st week,im away frm the 29 may to 1st june for my specialist course following tat i had my sch leadership camp frm the 2nd to 4th june den the third camp i went was in sch,for the sec 1 NCC cadets...the most recent so called camp tat i went was in Malaysia which i came back jus 2days ago,went there frm 14th to 18th june tis was a mountain climbing trip at Mt Ophir which was near KL...all tis was wat i went through for the whole mth of june...lol

i quite regret goin for all tis camps because i found out tat i had neglected my family and especially my dear...I wan to say sorri to everybody for tis...

Dear,im sorri for wat i said....pls dun be angry wif mi and i hope we would be able to leave all unhappiness behind and carry on...LOVE YOU THATS ALL I WANT!! I LOVE YOU!!

im back to blog...lol...so long nvr blog le...haha...alot of things happened lah bt i cnt say everythin lah,veri lazi to type...lol...

i went for sec1 NCC camp in sch,the camp was like 3d2n lor veri long leh...lucky i attended the camp as the post of an instructor so life was much easier during the camp. the 1st thing the sec1 came in and did was checkin of their bags,for valuables and other sharp objects etc... i ask the cadet to stand at attention and dun move bt one of them started to talk so one of my frens knock the whole platoon (Pumping position) down and the instructors carry on checkin the cadets bag. it was so fun,my 1st time as a specialist...lol...we den introduce them to their group instrutors and carry on wif their bunk inspection. the whole day was jus teachin the cadets IFC (Indiviual Field Craft) and lunch was field cookin...haha...during field cookin,i myself pump a cadet...lol...i cant stand it,he was like disrespectin a instructor infront of mi so out of anger... i left to had my lunch aft knockin him down,i let my CSM take over...in the nite,the cadets had mass bath so fun lor...bt all so 'no balls' de,mass bath shld strip naked de lor bt all wear underwear and bathe...lol...when i enter the toilet it was like so colourful lor,rainbow sia...haha...

the next day had PT in the morning as usually in NCC and followin a short run outside the sch...aft PT,shld had amazing race around Hougang de lor den suddenly heavy rain so no choice,we had some stupid game in the foryer and the 1st game was planned by mi...lol...dinner was provided by us,nasi lemak leh...shiok sia...haha...they went to HQ NCC for their trainfire (Rifle Handling) so the instructors all slack off back home den some go play Lan...lol...free time for 4hrs and i went home to bathe...haha...

i jus write till here,i lazi to continue le...lol...and im leavin for Mt Ophir on wed nite so u all wont be seein mi until the 19th of june when i come back...haha...and im so hook to POKEMON now...

im so happy aft the movie we had together. i hope we will hv more time like tis again...

jus coame back frm my Specialist Course and im nt reali happy wif the results...lol...i wan aimin for a 2nd Sergent and i got a 3rd Sergent...haix...bt if tats wat they tink i can jus do den so be it lah,i dun reali care abt it anymore...

i dunno wheather can i even survive throught tis holidays anot,i hv been hvin camp since i started the holidays...nt even a day of rest and im goin off for another camp today again..are they tryin to kill mi...i wont be back till sun aftnn,so sorri guys i wont be able to make it for the children's choir camp...

lets talk abt my camp...lol...i booked in at HQ NCC on 29june at 0730 and went off to SISPEC (The School of Infantry Specialists) near jurong at 0900. aft we reach there, we did some admin work and went to their auditorium for the opennin speech by CO SISPEC plus our "How to be a good Combat Leader" talk...its quite borin lah bt i still like it becos of the air-con there...haha...the onli time tat can hv air-con leh...den we went for lunch,the food was nt bad bt i still like the food at Mowbray Camp (near Yew Tee MRT)...the next half of the day we were like doin hands-on on rifles and guns...quite a good experience bt the sun was veri hot tat day...lol...

2nd day was alrite...basically we woke up at 0530 and went for PT conducted by the SAF specialists at 0545, we had our breakfast aft tat. breakfast finish le and we move on to SAFWOS (Warrant Officer School) to see wat the place abt and wat ppl do in there...lol...we carry on the day wif more talks and end the day wif hands-on experience again wif guns bt tis time its a bigger weapon wif higher killin power like the mortar and ATGM (Anti Tank Guided Missile). was so happy aft tat becos it was time to book out,YEAH!!

3rd and 4th days were at HQ NCC. the first day we booked in at 0800 and when for our test at 0900. we were tested on our IFC(Individual Field Craft) & Trainfire (Rifle Handling),it lasted for the whole day lor bt wif breaks along the way lah. aft dinner i had my GSK Test (General Specialist Knowledge Test), i was veri nervous abt it becos i did nt study for it.we will be tested on the basics of SAF and NCC like hw mani rounds can a M16 fire and etc. the 2nd day,all of us were veri excited abt it becos it was the last day of course and our POC(Passing-Out ceremony) is drawin nearer and nearer...we all got our ranks aft the ceremony and left HQ NCC for home...

i noe its quite long lah,bt i reali jus wanna let out everything i when throught for the pass 4days...lol...im damn tired now,goin to sleep le (in the aftnn)...cya all again and remain happy always...bb..