it has been really some time since my last post. LOL. not that i dont want to post lah but i just dont hv anything to put up here. tomrrow i will be off for camp le, but will be going for a slack camp lah. i have nothing much to do during the camp. I just have to make sure that everything goes well and runs well during the camp. thats all and also make decisions lah. Camp OIC.

recieve an email from mr seah in the afternoon that i have been nominated for council president. have to do rally leh, dunno will make it anot. i can say that i have a little interest for this position lah bt i dont like the election part. public speaking leh, how?? I got stage fright...

my diary,i wrote everyday from the start but after afew days i start to slack. i can have a break of 3days then write leh. izzit ok?? or must i write everyday?? hmm...

i want to do well for my studies, i really want to. i have decieded to pull up my socks and buck up for my upcoming prelims and 'N' Level. and i heard that prelims are brought forward. means it will be super near national day. my weak subjects are my science and humanities. quite difficult for me to do well but i am still going to try to get at least Bs for all my subjects.

friendship, is a something that will last forever?? people says that during ur seconday and post secondary school days, these are the time tat where you will make the most friends. and the time where some people will be part of your life and some people will leave your life and become your memories. this is the time i am going through now. friends that i make, they are drifting further and further away. unwilling to grap the hands of people who are trying to help them. it is really sad to see people who you love and care for go astray. whose fault are all these?? their own?? it is choices people make that hurts those around them. example, someone talks to you, it is your choice to anwser the person and give them a warm reply or to just ignore them or reply in a manner which will just end the conversation straight away. so i have learn one thing from reflecting, cherish those who you love and try to open up to people who are trying to help. if you have something to do or tell someone, do it right away. dont live to regret your life. it is a very painful experience.

Cherish
Pull up my socks

<一生绝望>

我们肆无忌惮 我们成群结党
我们目无尊长 对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长 只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是 我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们 就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会 替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

副歌
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

I will be blogging lesser nowadays. becos i have alreadx started on writing my diary so i tink i wont be using blog le bah bt dun delete me off yet. i will still post somethings once in awhile lah...so hang on guys...

MYE Results
English : 61%
Chinese : 52%
E Maths : 79%
A Maths : 46%
Combine Science : 57%
POA : 58%

i still have my combine hum nt taken back yet bt frm the looks of my results here, im gone liao...haix...

thurs had POA paper, gave up le. reali cnt do, my whole class was like look at the paper onli all froze liao. not many ppl understand the questions leh...LOL...

in the morning, P and VP spoke abt the littering problems at the study area outside the General Office and wanted to see the councillors regarding tis aft sch. So clive and i jus went to see wat suggestions there is. we were told to

1) Lead by example
2) Get someone to do it WITH you
3) Influence others to do it

saying all tis maybe easi bt wif the students we are dealing wif, there is onli quite a small amount hope tat they will listen to us. Bt im gonna try to do it becos the VPs hv said tat anyone not obeying the 'orders' councillors gif will be dealt wif as defience and will recieve 3strokes of the cane...HAHA... so you all see who will have the last laugh...

went home onli, straight away fall sick. fever wasnt reali high, 38 bt my whole body was super weak. when i walk frm the room to the toilet, i was like dragin my feet all the way. super weak sia den when to the toilet, vomited out everything and black out aft tat. was lying on the living room floor and nobody knew abt it. i lied there for 10mins den when back to the room to sleep again. was sleeping like frm aftnn to the next morning lah, i even cancelled my piano lesson becos i seriously wont hv the strength to carry on wif it. next day was a maths exam leh and i nvr even touch a damn thing. actually alreadx called my teacher and told him i not goin to sch de bt in the end, i still went lah.

didnt do well for my a maths. i onli confidence of 30+/80. doin the first 6questions was relatively easy den the hard part came aft tat. all the questions, i cnt tink of the ways to solve them. even simple m1 x m2 = -1, i also cnt rmb. seriously, this exam is gone le, reali gone.

write till here bah, there are many things i wan to say bt cnt say here. jus approach mi for more things bah. Byebye.

chem, quite an ok paper. still can manage to pass bah.

nowadays, i dunno wat to blog sia. life has been so stagnent, so nth-to-do-at-all. and the bloody weather is damn HOT!! i cnt take it alreadx sia, reali super hot. even wif fan blowin full blast at me, im still perspiring. wah seh...

i tink im falling sick le, flu is getting worst. my heachache shld be coming soon le bah...haix...


Brothers forever.
My love for you will never die.

jus changed my hp ytd, finally!! quite old phone lah bt i still like it. W550i...

onli 1 paper today, phy. i tink shld be able to pass. *secret*

tml is chem, i will be studyin for it bah. cnt let mrs tan down. :)

Dear God,

People can decieve each other but I have learn one thing, it is : You can always decieve others and not let them know what is going on, but the most important thing is not to decieve yourself and be true to yourself. I pray for strength for everyone and myself to be true to each other and even if not to each other, the very least is to ourselves.

I have shown you in every way by laboring like this,that you must support the weak. And remembering the words of the Lord Jesus,that He said, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive. Acts 20:35

Amen

first paper EL paper2, was like so hard to understand lah. all the passages on current affairs de, like geo paper like tat. wat water supply lah, child labour lah...haix...make until we all also blur. bt suprisingly, the summary was super easi lah. all can be found directly frm the passage de. bt i tink my questions all ans nt up to standard. try to man qiang pass still can bah. which i hope so.

CL paper2, quite fast lah. easi also nt say easi den hard also nt veri hard. moderate paper. for compre, i copy down almost the whole paragraph as ans. becos everythin sounds logical to mi leh. lol... even wrong also no choice liao, pass up le. jus pray hard tat i will get the marks.

went for the express maths paper1. walao, express students all say veri easi bluff ppl de ar. the startin few questions still ok leh den come to the back onli, i gone liao. i left the angle properties of circle blank, i left vectors blank, i left transformation blank. haix...i left alot of thin blank lah,when doin hor, my whole mind reali blank ar. cnt tink of the things to do...luckily this is jus a gauge for ourselves and nt the real de.if real de i like tat hor, i tink can forget abt gettin A1 liao.

while doin my chinses paper, i thought of startin a diary sia, dunno why out of sudden. hmm, mayb aft my exams, when im free, i will start to write everyday...lol...see how long can i last.

came back home abt 5plus, sian like siao. play com and piano nia. the way i see ppl play piano hor, reali envy leh. i tink i will nvr be able to reach the stage de. nvr even. i jus hide in my little small corner, play all the not-so-pro songs myself...

There is a place I call my own

Where I can stand by the sea

And look beyond the things i've know

And dream that I might be free

People from the N4 cluster combine choir 2004 held at NCH will know what song is this.

today had CL paper1 and geo.

CL i still quite confident on my letter leh bt nt my compo. i wrote like onli 1page lah,dun hv anythin to write le...the topic was on "singaporeans nowadays want to climb the corporate ladder first before they start a family" (i translated frm chinese to english lah) ask to write ur feelings abt it so i jus crap lor, talkin abt next time not enough ppl to feed the old and take care of the older generation, blah blah blah...

Geo ar, confirm the same as POA fail de. i wrote crap all the way lah. the question says use any examples that u hv learn to explain bt i nvr even memorise anythin frm my notes hw to ans lah... im preparin to fail almost half my MYE le...haix...

tml is EL & CL paper2, nth to study, so slacking now lor...i tink i shld be able to pass for tis 2 papers bah...den aftnn, ppl go home, still have to saty in sch to take the express paper. so long sia, 2hrs leh. sit until my butt rot ar, bt no choice, who call mi o level maths student...haha...

jus came back frm comfirmation interview. quite fast lah mine, i heard frm some of my frens they got 40mins de leh. mine leh, still acceptable lah, 25mins. lol... fr tay was like askin me the history of the ROMAN and APOSTALIC church lah. which dates back to some yr 313 thing, i cnt reali rmb my sec3 work le lah. he also say tat, some ppl in choir are nt seriously durin mass or nt respectful enough. he say tat must step out, talk to everyone, tell them the importance of us being a group and so we muct have a bond tat will last us forever. i hope it will bah...

i jus hope it will

POA today, dun nid to prepare to fail bt alreadx fail liao. reali dunno hw to do lor, trading and profit and lost account, depreciation, general journals, balance sheet and all the crap...haix...my mum say cnt lose to her, last time her POA get B3 leh...

bt on the other hand, my maths 1 still ok lah...DM set de leh and i find it easi...i counted le, even if i lose marks on careless and comfirm wrong ans, i will still at least get A1 de...yesh!! a comfirm A1 liao... tis fri takin the express maths paper 1, heard frm my frens tat it is quite easi so im tryin to get better den them :) Express students, watch out man...

confirmation coming up le, dunno wan to get a confirmation name mah...hmm, fidelis means faithful. looks like a cool name bt dunno leh, havent ask my godma yet.

life have been like a rollar coaster for mi, up and down, up and down...haix...i dunno wat to do wif it sia, though i like the real thrill when takin the real thing bt when it comes to my life, i dun reali like it. It jus sux...seriously...i have no mood for anythin now, MYE and everyday i jus read abit and slack all the way...haix...i doubt my dreams of becoming an engineer now le...i shld jus give up and sweep floor for the government...

waiting in hopeful joy