here to blog. had my first 2 papers today. English was quite easy becos the report writing question was the one we did in class abt the bullying de. den compo, i crap abt some how to be a good student. wrote jus nice 250 words. haha. nth much to write aft tat le. aft the break, SS. a subject which i dunno if i can pass anot. i got 24/50 last yr leh, tis yr i hope to get better. for the structured questions,i crap all the way lor becos i didnt bother to read the notes and jus simply use my common sense to answer them.

had a sudden bag check today sia, dunno why all of sudden. teacher abit crazy ar.

i dunno wat to say le, tml is public holiday bt have to study so sian. POA on wed, another subject which i tink i will fail. haix...

the day the music die

My Prayer

Dear God,

I thank you for the days of my life that you have given me. I thank you for all my friends, families and my loved ones. Though life change when we grow up, i still hope to remember all the wonderful memories that many people have given me and all the happy moments I have with people. These, will always be in my heart forever. I pray for all parents in the world to have your grace. I also pray for people who are having their examinations now, i pray that you give them strength to do well in whatever they do and give them the peace in their hearts. Love is something which you have shown to us through your son our Lord, Jesus Christ. I may not have seen it with my eyes but I have faith and trust in you that all this you have shown to us are true. I ask you to cheer up all the people who are unhappy or upset about things and help them pass this period of time. I do not mind giving up things that I have for the comfort of others and i hope by doing this, others will be happy.

Age Quod Agis

Amen

PSALM 139

Yahweh, you examine me and know me,
you know if I am standing or sitting,
you read my thoughts from far away,
whether i walk or lie down, you are watching,
you know every detail of my conduct.

The word is not even on my tongue,
Yahweh, before you know all about it ;
close behind and close in front you fence me around,
shielding me with your hand.
Such knowledge is beyond my understanding,
a height to which my mind cannot attain.

Where could I go to escape your spirit?
Where could I go to flee from your presence?
If I climb the heavens, you are there,
there too, if I lie in Sheol.

If I flew to the point of sunrise,
or westward across the sea,
your hand would still be guiding me,
your right hand holding me.

If I ask darkness to cover me,
and light to become night around me,
the darkness would not be dark to you,
night would be as light as day.

It was you who created my inmost self,
and put me together in my mother's womb ;
for all these mysteries I thank you :
for the wonder of myself, for the wonder of your works.

You know me through and through,
from having watch my bones take shape
when i was being form in secret,
knitted together in the limbo of the womb.

You had scrutinised my every action,
all were recorded in your book,
my days listed and determined,
even before the first of them occurred.

God, how hard it is to grasp your thoughts !
How impossible to count them !
I count no more count them than I could the sand,
and suppose I could, you would still be there with me.

God, if only you would kill the wicked !
Men of blood, away from me !
They talk blasphemously about you,
regard your thoughts as nothing.

Yahweh, do I not hate does who hate you,
and loathe those who defy you ?
I hate them with a total hatred,
I regard them as my own enemies.

God, examine me and know my heart,
probe me and know my thoughts ;
make sure I do not follow pernicious ways,
and guide me in the way that is everylasting.

Amen

stupid MIO, get not even one week onli spoil. bt got it fixed alreadx, ytd. so tat was why i wasnt online frm thurs till ytd.

through the week, nth much happen. we lost 1st time in badminton to some nvr heard before sch (Boon Ley). Mr Simen wasnt veri happy abt it bt we cant always be champions forever right? it has been like 3 or 4yrs tat we got champ so it is time to let others have a chance.

on fri had the mass tat i was suppose to conduct and the choir jus cnt make it. to tink tat VP still could praise the choir aft mass. i was sitting behind the choir and i noe hw they sound, if tisis consider good den you must be deaf. they sux to the core, especially the pianist (music teacher). yes, u can play bt doesnt mean a student cant play better den u right?? i dunno why bt somehow the choir wants mi to conduct them bt i jus told them tat ur present conductor shld be better den mi right, frm montfort chorale one. bt seriously, he sux. teacher overheard wat i told the choir den came and tell mi say "not that he is better than you but becos u did nt attend the full dress rehearsals so we cant let you do." aiya, even if u wan mi to do i also wont. u all (as in the teachers) also dun wan to listen to mi, no point lah.

the parade ytd was a screw up. i saw the video my mum took, it jus sux. all the marching part was nt up to standard but NCC u all did ok. well, at least better den all the other CCAs. NCDCC seriously need to work on their discipline, Scouts is average bt nid to brush up on their footdrills. NPCC, i dun wish to comment on anything.

i jus cant help bt to tink. there is so many things tat i have done, not done, did wrongly. some of them, i jus did them for the sake of doing but some i really put in my heart and soul into them. i jus dunno if the person 'recieves' my feelings. maybe it is not meant for mi to noe bah, jus let God handle them. i reali hope for things to change, for the better. i reali hope.

Hope.

today is the day. i hope you still remember because i will not forget this day. i will wish you. Happy _________!!!

came back frm AJ concert, it was quite well done. ppl may gif comments tat tis nt gd, tat nt gd bt on my part i find tat it was veri well done. bloggin now when everybody at home is sleepin in the air-con room le bt im still out in the living room wif the fan.

Nothing much happen today bah, had sch as usual den Mr Seah's meeting. i dunno shld i go for the election rally anot leh. i wan it bt i scared lose lah. let me think about it first. had lessons and physic test. i tell you, even open book test i also can fail lor, i tink my physic CMI liao. hack abt it lah. im focusing on my maths tis year, jus maths alone. the rest can wait bah. i jus registered for my chinese 'O' jus now. 30th of May is the exam le, 1mth more man. super fast. there is supervised self studies for NA classes lor. and we have to clocked up of at least 18hrs in tis 2weeks leh, i alreadx skipped once today so looks like i have to go for saturdays too. haix...so sian...

FD is onli abt 4days away. i find tat the parade is abit nt up to standard, everything is wrong and the parade rehearsals are too little le. NPCC, buck up lah. the parade can fall but for NCC, u all listen up, we must uphold ourseleves as the best for the parade. i dun wan to see anybody screwing up tis thing.

Everybody, please help pray for my baby brother Xaiver who is in the hospital now. He was having high fever and had fits just now and was immediately rush to the hospital through ambulance. I thank you all for all your prayers in advance. Thks.

"I love you with every beat of my heart"

was wearing my no.4 the whole day, every fri also like tat damn hot lah... morning was quite 'sart',whole NCC did push-ups infront of the whole sch and all thks to who, ME!!! haha. i was the one who pump them all. aiya, 50 nia, no kick de lah. i reali like NCC bt i cnt work wif certain ppl inside there, jus cnt lah. the whole day of sch was as per normal, nth much. lessons lessons lessons.

i give up le, cant take it anymore. i give up on counducting the choir for founder's day mass. if u wan mi to conduct and dun wan to listen to mi den what for u ask mi. unless u can tell mi tat u noe the church music better den fine, i will shut up and listen. but NO, nt even a catholic and u are tellin mi wat to do wif the music. i add one bar, u tell mi cnt. i ask u to play an intro u tell mi acclaimation dun nid intro. den WTF u nid mi for, jus for show ar. i rather step out of the picture and let the choir cock up and i jus see. i wan to do it for GOD bt i seriously cant work nt wif the choir bt wif the teachers in-charge. fuck u all lah (jus an expression. even if u gif them to mi i also dun wan, so old and ugly). u can forget abt mi playin the piano for sch mass also, both of the teachers seriously cnt make it. 1 is a music teacher and 1 is a so-called in-charge of the catholic students in sch bt both CANT sing bt wan to act, sing so loud. key start wrong also and u expect the choir to follow u. haix. i jus dunno what to say lah, it is nt tat i dun wan to help u all, i also noe tat tis is a impt mass for the sch becos of founder's day bt the pianist (the music teacher) cant make it and u all dun wan to listen to the things i hv to say, if tat is the case, so be it bah...

tml will be council interview for the open norminated lower secondary. i dun tink i will let so many ppl in bah, jus dunno u all wan to join the council for the glory & power or truely to serve the sch. u all jus rmb, ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS! no point giving mi so gd and perfect answers durin my interview wif u all bt when i appoint,u all jus slack there and gif mi shit.

problems problems problems. i also dunno wat am i sayin lah bt nvm im jus too counfuse inside mi.

sometimes i just forget
saying things i might regret
it breaks my heart to see you crying.

jus came back frm easter vigil mass. everything when quite well bt i tink i screwed up my psalm abit. and im regrating something now, there is something which i have not done and now im feeling veri uneasy inside, it is like something is missing. im sorry for it. seriously.

life hasnt been going well, be it in sch, council or NCC. my sch work is now getting frm bad to worst, i dunno where to start and without knowing where to start, i wont know where to end right?? im still sleeping through my A Maths lesson, jus cant concentrate. all my subjects are like shit, i can forget abt my poly le bah. in council, jus had quite a hiong meeting wif the inner council. trash out quite afew things bah bt i noe tat there are more to say de onli tat we do not have enough time. if u all tink tat we are of no use den produce things tat we cnt do and i will automatically disband my advisory council. im getting more and more pissed off in NCC, first the incident on tue bt alreadx settle le den i dun like tiong's way of running things,i tink he shld noe right, CPT is bigger den S/CLT. bt he is always giving orders tat defys the orders tat are set. i dun wish to say anymore abt tis le.

im feeling happy for someone/something. i cnt show it out on my face becos i jus cant. though i say im happy bt it is onli all in the inside. you all may not see it but i know it very well that i really am.

I have thought of putting it one side but the thought of you, i just can't do it. You really mean alot to me, i don't know how to show it but i really mean what i say.

Glory of Love
Peter Cetera

Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

You'll keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love

Somewhere there's someone
who dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence
that life is worth while,
so when you are lonely,
remember this is true:
Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you...