Fianlly here to post. Everyday when I turn on my computer, I have the urge to blog but always very lazy to click the buttons. Haha.

Already got back all my results, a bit depressing though. I don't think I improve in any subjects. Looking and comparing with my MYE results, some are same but most are worst. Thats the part that worries me. My class everybody also like haven't wake up yet, most of them still slacking their time away. After prelims, the absentees from the class is incresasing. I also don't know what they want sia, like then you might as well don't sit for O Levels also.

Anyway, below are my results (results in bracket are my MYE scores) :

English : B3 (B3)
Chinese : B3 (O Levels)
E Math : A2 (A1)
A Math : C6 (C5)
Science : C6 (D7)
Humanities : C5 (C5)
Bible Knowledge : F9 (D7)

Now you all know how badly I have done. I want at least 2 A1, which by the looks of my prelims, it most likely will not be attainable. I know I really have to work hard for it. It is only like in another 19 days and everything that I have studied for, for the pass 5 years will be put to the test. Thinking about it already makes me scared, don't talk about going in on the day itself.

School is planning our Graduation Night. I only know today that it was before our O Levels. So feedback was given, how to enjoy when it is before out O Levels. There were 3 options given to us, school, Grassroots Club and NTU Alumni Club. For me, personally I will prefer to have it in school. I'm don't bother about the place we are holding it at lor, it is like, even in school also nevermind what. All guys in school, what do you want to do also? Even it has to be outside school, I would rather Grassroots Club. Majority of the express classes voted for it to be at NTU Alumni Club which is like damn far lah. Go so far for what sia, then if we play too late, go home the cab fare will be like crazy lor. Never think de lor. I can say so much lah but the final decision still lies with the principal bah. Will be waiting for his decision...

Today had quite a lot of fun. Nativity Feast Day Food and Funfair. I was playing quite crazily lah. LOL. Chopping people with the chop all over the hands and face. Haha. Actually nobody followed the roster that was made but the main point is to have fun right? I think most of the time, almost everybody is at the stall helping. Which is good, this is the type of choir bonding me need lah. Haha.

Wanted to congratulate Daryl (and abit of Marilyn) for planning the stuff for our stall. Haha. Then I want to thank the people who went to make and touch up the banner. They are, Daryl, Selene, Brian, The Old, Teresa, Louise, Uncle Sam and me. LOL. We had a lot of fun doing the setting up and stuff on Saturday. Haha. I also wan to thank eveybody who helped out at the stall today. And today I found out a new thing, Rena quite good with publicity ar. Maybe can be the next The Old. Haha. Anyway, Happy Feast Day!!!

Tomorrow going to start papers again. Left A Math paper 2, BK and Science MCQ. I don't know what to do with these papers lah. I will try my best for A Math but the rest, I don't know wheather can make it anot. It is like so impossible for me to do well for BK lah. Haix. if I have known earlier, I would not have taken up this subject. It is really very difficult to do. Teacher keeps on saying, take the passages inside as stories to read. I can read lor but I cannot MEMORISE lah. It is like so crazy if I can memorise can.

I was just randomly thinking, is earphone/headphone a good invention? I don't deny that they have they good points but people often forgotten to look at the bad ones.

I really hate it when i'm out with someone and the person has an earphone/headphone on. I mean, hello, this is basic respect. Even if you have one side off, listening to the conversation, does not mean that the other party can accept it. I find that this is the most rude thing that can happen when you are out with someone, totally no respect. I just hate this sort of things. I always believe in basic human respect. No matter how much I hate someone, I will always give the person the basic respect that he/she ought to have. But just don't push it too far, I have my limits too...

Went to print the SJB shirt last week. Luckily we went earlier by abit, if not the person would have left already. Then also, luckily we went down personally, there was so many stuff to do. The selection of material, selection of colours, selection of fonts. Wah, we took almost 1 hour to get it done. Although the price is abit steep but I will still be willing to pay for it. It is not say that we do this often right? Jie says that we will change our shirt once in 2 years. Because she says that it is not everyday that you get inspiration to draw. Haha.

Papers only end next week, it seems such a long time. Today had A Math, all I can say is : "Thank you, Mr Ang". I mean both sarcastic and not. Some of the questions are very easy and they sort of boosted our moral but when it comes to hard questions, they are really hard. I left blank almost 20 marks out of the whole paper. I think this time even a pass also cannot get already. It really suck lah.

Next week still got BK. That one is confirm fail one, so i'm not even bothered to spend my time reading and memorising it. I thought it was an interesting subject to do but I was wrong. The text that have been selected is damn dry. It is so hard to memorise the things inside. I mean, this subject is just by pure memory only. There is no formula for you to apply to score, there is no way for you to smoke through anything. NOTHING AT ALL!! Teacher says that, if we fail our prelims, we will not be allowed to sit for the O Level Paper. I think none of us will be able to pass and anyway, I will be more than happy to not do the paper. LOL.

I can't wait for O Levels to be over. I can't wait for secondary school life to be over. I have been in this school for 5 years, I think it is time I move on to another environment. I guess it is just another 61 days of staying in this school, after that will be bye bye Montfort.

I just changed my blog skin. I felt that it was time for a little change. Haha. Sometimes it is better to experience different things than to always stick to something in your own comfort zone. :)

Had E Math Paper 1 today. I tell you, it was totally screwed up. The standard set was so high. I was flipping through the paper from the start and there were like so many questions which I don't know how to do. I gave up totally about almost 10 marks out of the 80 marks. I think this time, there goes my A1. It is damn depressing lah. I know the school wants the students to do well but no need to such extent right? It is not only for my school, I believe many other schools does the same thing.

Yesterday was Geography paper. I gave up on it lah, practically never study anything at all. I just went in with the past knowledge I have from the practices in class. I feel that the paper was relatively easy, if you study lah. I read through some of the questions and I sort of remember some parts being taught in class but it wasn't clear enough for me to write it down on the answer paper.

Going to gym has now becoming quite and important thing to me. I will feel very uneasy if I never go to the gym for one week. Haha. Good sign or bad? The pills that i'm taking now really works but I kind of regret buying it. My biceps are getting smaller, thats a bad thing for me. I thought I could start to do toning now but seeing the effects of toning, I think I want to go back to mass building again. Need to train hard man.

Really looking forward to attending Cadet Officer Course (COC) in November. People keep on asking me why I want to spend 3 weeks suffering in camp. I also don't know how to answer this question. The only thing I can say is, I already wanted to join NCC when I was in primary school. Then after I joined, I wanted to go for the various courses which I did and ultimately the last course which I wanted to attend was this, COC. In my primary school days, every weekend after my Cello practice, I would walk pass the behind part of the D&T block and looking at the cadets doing drills. I told myself, when I join secondary school, I will and must sign up and join NCC, which I eventually did. Suffered through the 4 years of NCC and passing out as a Staff Sergeant (SSG) really is quite an achievement for me. Now after we passed out, some of my platoon mates came up and told me that at the beginning, they thought that I would be one of those who will drop out halfway through the 4 years (because of my size) but I prove them wrong!! Haha. So now, i'm working towards my goal in NCC to be a Cadet Officer. :)

are you the one?

Time passes so fast, today is already the last day of school holidays. Means that i'm going to continue with my prelims soon.

This whole week just zoomed pass so fast. First, I recieve a bad news from Frankie. I think as a friend, I didn't do my best to help him during the whole duration. I was too caught up with my own stuff, felt really bad. I really hope he can stay strong, his whole family is counting on him now. We, as brothers, will definately do our best to support him in this time of crisis.

I realise that I didn't fo much for this whole holidays. I only went back to school for A Math lessons, went down to the wake/funeral and today went to ICA Building to extent my passport. It is a very bad sign. I think i'm most likely going to screw up for my prelims. Even though Mr Ong said it is ok but still it doesn't feel like me. I know i'm just plain lazy but how can I change this bad habit of mine? I think the solution I found for myself is to study with the correct people. (And I must be in a grounp before I will start anything) Studying alone, I will start to pack up my things very fast. Like what JUST happened. I packed up my stuff after only doing 1 paper of Physics MCQ.

I don't like failures, thats why when something is wrong and I cannot solve it, I will choose to run away from it. It is a habit of mine. When I don't know how to do the front questions, I will not even bother to look at the back questions and just keep it. Why does this has to keep happening? I know my own problems but I don't know how to solve them. I have heard a lot of "just change this habit lah". So easy to say right but when it comes to doing it, how many people can actually do it?

All the best for your upcoming examinations.