i collected my report book today.haix..dun looks good lah..tis is the 1st time i put in so much effort and it turn out to be the same as last time...

last day of sch le,bt i dun reali look foward to it...first 2weeks of my holiddays are like packed lor...everyday i hv camp,i dunno wat kind of holidays are tis...lol...nothing much happen lah,onli tat i jus recieve my bill and my mum was so angry. my bill was like $85 becos of 1532 sms-es. to some ppl tis may nt be much bt becos all the while my bill was on below $25 and suddenly jump up to $85. its quite a sacry jump lah,to mi. my parents now wan to change my plan to the student plan b4 they go broke payin my bills. i noe its their hard-earned money lah,so now im tryin to cut down on my sms-es and calls.

My camps will start next week le,everyday leh. first 2days of my 1st camp is at Pasir Laba camp sia,i dunno where the hell izzit. den the next 2days is at HQ NCC,leadership camp sia. aft tat the day aft i come back frm my 1st camp will be my 2nd camp le..lol.. in pula ubin,tekan camp leh...come back punch ppl sure no strength de becos do too mani push-ups there liao...lol...aiya,jus wish tat all tis camps will end as fast as possible lah...its jus too much alreadx,bt better den my last yr of NDP...haha...

i hope tat i would be able to pass my first camp wif flyin colours to get my 2nd Sergeant Rank...and i also wan everybody to stay happy always especially my dear...dear,dun stress wif ur NDP practise. must find time to relex de lah...find someday i go out wif u...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!! CHEERS!!!

another few days and sch iz goin to close soon...lolz...aft lookin at all my results,im quite happy wif both my Maths(A1) and my POA(A2) bt the rest are all like s!*t...haix...i guess i nvr worked hard enough...

althought holidays are comin,i reali feel quite bored...im goin to hv camp once my holiday start...sian...ncc camp some more tat makes it even more borin...the whole mth is like fill wif camps lah,damn sian...tis means tat i do nt have any time to do my own things lor...lol...

dun reali hv anything to write lah...jus wan to say happy holidays to everyone...haha...cheers man...

im back. sch is startin tml again and i cant wait for it. lol...u may tink tat im crazy bt im not. for the few days of " holidays",i was practically rotting and sleepin the whole time...haha...actually i sometimes dun reali like holidays...lol...i would rather hv normal sch day becos i can mit up wif my frens.

todae is sun and as usual,i would to to church in the mornin...singin during mass (becos in the choir)...went for practice aft tat...ended later den usual todae lor,9.30am leh...late for cat class bt i also dun care de,to mi its jus a waste of time goin for class...Fr Paul Yeo came in when we were in class, he came in to tell us abt our interview wif him durin the second half of the year...lame...played a veri lame game also,completin the square...haix..waste of my time...went to leo's hse aft class,we were all like there until 1.30pm lor...singin and listenin to music...lol...

went home and fell asleep,dunno y suddenly so sleepy...lol...went to bro's godparent's hse to celebrate Mother's Day...haha...sing karao-ok, drank some beer and left for home...haha...

tml is goin to be another sch day le...happy sch day everyone...lol...haha...i cant wait for tues to go for VJC concert...haha...

Free Man!!

todae was last paper, A Maths...lol...i did nt hv enough time to finsh. i am veri confidence tat if i can finish i can pass the paper wif "flying colours" bt the bottom line,i still do nt hv enough time...argh...wasted at least 8marks. bt still wont fail de,i hv faith in myself...haha..bluffing myself. i went home at 11am wif a heavy heart,still cnt get the questions of the paper out of my mind...haix...

the 1st thing i did was to call my dear...talk for abt 3mins...haha...i also heard tat she lost marks in her EMaths paper2....lol...tis is call "you fu tong xiang,you nan tong dang"...nt bad ley,i can remember tis cheem cheem thing...haha...i told my mum aft tat and she told mi the same thing over and over again "time management" haix,listen until sian liao...as usual,reach home onli i on my com liao...

recieve a call frm my mum,ask mi to bring my bro for his class @ Anderson Pri...haix...wasted my 2hrs. i was like at the coffeeshop readin newspaper and drinkin milo...look abit like 'lao ah pek'.

the rest of the time aft tat i was slackin and rottin all the way infront of the com lor...lol...seriously nothing to do,hw i wish i could turn back time and redo my A Maths paper again,it was reali veri wasted lor...veri veri wasted...

will stop here todae,damn borin lah...i rather hv exams again...lol...jus jk lah...haha...anybody wan to look for mi to go out can send mi a e-mail or something...haha...bt i wont pay for anything de hor,jus to let u all noe...i m BROKE!!!

School!!

todae sch was like....i reach sch in the 7am as usual wif nobody around. my frens will always reach around 7.30am so i jus sit at the bench and wait...lolz...todae exam was chem and geog bt i had no mood to study so i knew tat i will surely fail.

my chem paper was still ok lah,should be able to jus get a pass for it...haha...bt my geog was like...haix...the paper was onli 7pages bt it seems like infinity pages...lolz...i was thinkin veri hard at the question lor,asking dunno wat questions also. i dunno wat got all of it got to do wif my life...haix...i m alreadx prepared tat i will fail for my geog...my whole class was like askin each other the answer when the teacher was nt lookin...lolz...the questions are reali damn difficult lor asking us to gif reasons for dunno wat wet rice cultivation...

sch is fun bt comin to exams,the whole sch turned veri boring in my eyes...dunno abt the rest of u bt reali i find it veri boring...

dear,dun feel sad lah....wat done is done le,it cant be change...it breaks my heart to see u so sad....jus let bygones be bygones and carry on wif the life...i will be beside u always...remember tat...you will nvr suffer or walk alone...

Heavy Heart

Exams are going to be over soon and I hope tat everyone will do for it. I don’t know how to describe my feelings now, the only thing I can say is my heart is very heavy now and I really don’t know what to do. Can anyone help me!! I m really confuse now… I am really trying to be perfect and not to let anyone down but I can see today that I cannot do it. But I will never ever give up trying for my loved ones. They are the dearest people to me in this world. I hope that whomever who was hurt by me in the past, present or future will forgive me and I apologize now for the wrongdoings that I have done. Maybe I really do not know what am I doing at the time that I hurt you but I know that these are excuses that you will not tolerate and so I now am trying to change.

Time flies and its already going to be half of the year and the long holidays are coming. I will stop here today. Wish everyone luck for their exams!!

I am trying to change…to be close to perfect like you want me to…