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2 nights ago, I was dreaming about something. Something which is super weird and super random lah. Cannot say it out here because, it will seriously sound very wrong. Haha.

These few days the intensive SS periods quite ok lah, understand more things than before. Hope to get at least a B4 for my combine humanities, which is always fail de. I damn scared for my N Levels next week leh, scared I cannot get the results I aim to get. Haix...STRESS!!

Today almost got into an argument with someone, I don't want to mention names. Is there a problem with me just making a joke? Does all these words (they are not even words, just my laughter) really hurt you so much? I just don't understand my classmates, are they really my classmates? During the election, even if you don't want to give me your support, you also don't need to put me down right? Even councillors in my class. Haix. I just don't know what to say about this.

Since I can't make you all accept me, I will go to the extreme, making you all hate me to the core. I already have a lot of things which I can do that will make people hate me for life. And it all just depends on wheather I care about our friendship or not. Don't want to talk about this already, the more I say, the more hot I get inside.

Because of all this, I felt abit emo today...Haha...

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Just woke up not long. After wake up abit blur, eat some fried rice then did my A Maths homework. Learn vectors in A Maths today, I think this time die, my E Maths vectors already having problem understanding le, now come out A Maths de. Haix. Don't know I can cope anot. Unit Vector? What the hell is that? I don't understand a single shit about it.

Was feeling abit emo in school today. Suddenly de lor, like in the morning, I was doing my work alone and nobody came and talk to me. All were like so engross in their handphones, playing games. Maybe it was my fault, I should not have given them the website to get the games. Ok, back to the point, so I just keep quiet the whole day lor, trying to do things with people not being able to see me. Only during recess then I talk and joke with DM.

Got this urge to talk about friendship sia, don't know why leh. Yesterday I was just sitting alone thinking about what had I went through for the past almost 10years in my school life. I find that many friends who I thought are my 'best friends' left eventually and some of them left with a scar in me. Not that they did something bad but it is just that, people do change and we must accept the fact of this. Being with this group of friends does not means that all of you will be together till the end of time, No. I can see this from an example now, just because a change of class and 'mystery guy' just change his whole point of view of friends. Not that we are not friends but it just feels different. The friends that play together and friends that just say 'Hi' and goes away are just different. Once people leave one another for sometime, their opinion of one another will change, be it small or big. So, cherish the people who are with you now for you do not know when will be your last days together as friends.

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When to say prayers in the morning today. After so long, because the teacher forgotten that the 4E/5N are having their prelims today and plan for them to say prayers when they are not around. So, no choice lor, I just say for today. Still can say lah, not that go up will lost for words but just don't feel easy lor. Haha.

English today, Mr Quek talked about narrative writing and shared with us a movie that has a very good "narrative example". Was just explaining to the whole class about the story of the show "Derailed". Never heared of the show before, but after how he explained, I find it quite interesting. Then tomorrow he will be touching on exposition, the topic which I usually write.

The rest of the day, lessons where just so-so. Mr Tan says that there will be intensive SS remedial for the whole of this week because N Level SS is just next Tuesday. I can't believe it, is just less than a week before my N Levels begin and i'm already think about the end. Wish me luck for my papers. Haha.

And I would like to pray for the people who are taking their exams this few weeks, pray that the Lord will give them strength in their coming papers and give them clear minds to think of the questions carefully before they do. Amen.

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This week past quite fast. With a blink of the eye, a new week is starting le. Tomorrow is going to be another start of a boring week in school. The Secondary 4 express students are starting their prelims tomorrow too, so there will be less people for assembly and recess. Haha.

Super sad, scored 8 points for prelims. Aiming 5 points leh, still got extra 3 points come out. I must get this 3 points out of my paper. N Level, here I come. Haha.

Went to SelenA's house to study yesterday. Thanks Jie, I finally understand the probability and a bit of vectors le. Haha. I still need help though, vectors still cannot really catch. Then have to take the express prelim maths paper during the 'last' day of holiday, on friday. Go back to school for 2 1/2hrs just to do a maths paper and a lot of questions inside i also don't understand de.

Yesterday before I went to SelenA's house to study, went for the stupid flag day. I collect afew lah, then went to SelenA's house to slack and past time. When I went back, the person told me : "I don't think your teacher will give you CIP hours for the amount you collected." So I told him lor, my CIP hours already 100+ liao, no point so many hours what. And my CCA points is the highest in class, 30 points. A1 leh, siao siao. I going to see if I got anymore points to claim next year.

I need to study with someone, seriously. I really want to get good results in the coming exams. I know it is abit late but better than not studying right? N Level maths post no threat to me, it is the O Level that I am afraid of. I cannot do my O Level questions, don't know why but just cannot do. BRYAN LIM, YOU MUST TRY HARDER!!! Haha. Looks like I am going crazy le.

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So long never update le, here to update now.

Collected results only today. English, Combined Humans and E Maths. English, got better than I expected, A2 leh. Haha. Then Combined Humans got C5, don't want to talk about it but i'm still glad I pass. An improvement from the last exam. E Maths is the most disappointing paper. I did not achieve what I ought to achieve or what I aim to achieve. Though I got an A1 but the marks is just too far from my aim, from the top few students to the average few. Haix, damn DISSAPOINTED.

N Level is just in 2 weeks time but this saturday still got flag day, stupid lah. Waste my time only, then if never go they say cannot graduate. I can do so much with the time I spend doing the flag day lah, like study.

Hope my exams will end soon, just endure for this 1 more month and N Levels will be over le but still got to wait for the stupid O Level paper. At the end of October sia, got like so long break lor. People can slack abit already but I still have to study for O Maths and Chinese. Haix. Life's so hard nowadays as students.

Stop here bah, damn sian and cannot think of anything to blog about le.

Send my brother for his DAS lessons yesterday at Anderson Primary. Then I went to a nearby coffeeshop to slack for the duration. Bought newpaper to read and I came across this article on MM Lee. He talked about leadership at a seminar and he says that being a leader, you also need sto have the eyes. He mention about sheepdogs in Australia, this is the quote from the newpaper :

"I went to a sheepdog exhibition in Australia and the chap with the whistle, he had three sheepdogs and he could get a flock of sheep corralled, bought down, put into the pan."

"So we asked him (the trainer), 'How do you train the dog?' He said, 'We have a way of doing this, but we must first decide wheather that dog can do this job.'

"I (MM Lee) said, How do you do it?'

"He said, 'Look at his (the dog) eyes, look at his pedigree. If the dog hasn't got the eyes that will look into a sheep and scare the sheep into doing this, don't try.' "

I find it interesting because of what he said about the eyes. The eyes does play an important role in leadership. If by looking at a person and you can't strike fear in the person to do what you want him/her to do then there is no point leading. I want to try out this, maybe i wasn't fierce enough in council and people keep on climbing on top of the executive council.

Prelims going end this friday, can't wait. I so sick of eveyday taking paper liao. So sian, then the aircon sometimes cold, sometimes not cold de. After prelims that weekend I want go watch 881 leh, who want go with me?

Faster finish 'N' & 'O' Levels. Then I can go for chalet, slack and play all the weeks away. Haha. I want to go for cruise, the thought of it just make me want it more.

Write till here bah, see if I can think of anything I want to write tonight. Haha.

Happy Belated Birthday Singapore!!!

Morning's flag rising was quite well done, because by me mah. Haha. No lah, because we all put in our best effort into this. Mr Chia still sent me a thank you sms in the afternoon. Thanks Mr Chia too. Was having a heavy downpour in the morning and I thought the ceromony will be cancelled. In the end, they say wait until 8.30am then decided wheather should be outdoor or indoor. If indoor, easy for me, I just have to hold the flag but outdoor must raise, so stress. Everybody in look at me. But ok lah, I got the timing everything correct.

Was so tired that I didn't even have the energy to stay online for long. Suppose to study at Jason's house, we did study but only a while, was playing the whole day after that. Cards, chess, piano, my phone, jason's phone and of cause our dearest mouth. Don't want to say much about our mouths, confidential. Haha. Then after that was super funny, SeleneA lost her handphone like 2times? Haha. Ask her about how she feel when we cannot find her phone. Almost thought she threw it down when emo-ing at the window. The whole day spend like almost 12hrs at Jason's house, but it was fun lah. Wait until my N Level finish then we can play again. Haha.

Today whole day is slacking day, trying to find things to do.

Signing off, Byebye.

So often we don't say 'I love you'
because we fear losing someone,
but more often we lose them
because we fear saying 'I love you'

Prelim starts today, had english paper1 and 2. Paper1 quite hard, especially the letter writing. Ask to write about family togetherness, what is the benefit and what has Singapore do to achieve this, how the hell I know sia. I think most likely gone liao. But paper2 was quite easy, I finish in less than 1hr. The summary technique which Mr Yeo taught was quite useful, hope to scoe better than what I scored during my MYE. Whole morning so noisely lor, the assembly, talk so much. I writing compo, cannot think properly sia. Now english finish le, tomorrow is SS and Chinese paper1 I think. Lol. Cannot remember.

After school, most of the time, I will just go straight home. I find that stay in school no point, I cannot really sit down to do my work because of the distractions around. Becasue of the election, now everyone in the school know me. Everywhere I go, sure got people say 'Hi' to me. If not there will be people making fun of me, saying that I did not win, etc... Actually, I don't really care about this election. Cannot get, then cannot get lor. If I want to help the council or serve the school, I can do it even if i'm not a councillor.

Being in the council, it is a previllage to me. While others are choosen, I volunteer myself. You all may say that I BHB lah but last time seconday1, be councillor like very cool mah but after the years I had serve, I learned from all my experiences. Councillor is not only about doing duties but it is about the commitment and the things you gain and learn in your years of service. Like, I have learn how to handle people during ushering, it is not just leading them to their destination but also the way you project yourself and how you lead them. All these are life experience which not many people will be expose to in their schooling days.

I'm at a blank now, want to do then also don't want to do. It really is turning me round and round, not giving me a chance to rest. I think I have already done my part, now it is up to you. If you still cannot do it, then i'm sorry, I don't think I can help anymore. Is it just so difficult? Or have a done something which you cannot take it? Haix...

If you love someone, tell them...
for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken.

Bought new shoes today!! Haha. See picture above. Cost me $60 sia, heart pain man but I think it is worth it lah. Quite nice, the colour and desgin. I have been eyeing this pair for like almost 1month le, fianlly can buy it. Haha. So next time I will be wearing this to church. lol.

Today was a normal sunday, there wasn't anything special that happen. But just now when I was going to sing Acclaimation, suddenly forget sia, even Jason also cannot sing for me. I think I just need to hear the music then can sing le. Haha. Slept the whole day until just now went my aunty house eat.

I got so many DVDs to watch, but I think only can watch after prelims. Prelims starts tomorrow liao, before National day have prelims sia. So sian, don't know who plan de. Cannot let us celebrate our National Day peacefully meh?

I don't know what to say already sia, i'm just trying to put away the past to carry on with whatever I should be doing and not dwell on them anymore. It is so sad to see people still not being able to give up on the past and carry on. Okok, don't know what am I saying here liao. Haha.

Nevermind, forget about what I said. Everyone, just stay happy!! And Happy Studying!!