Long days in school, very tired. Everyday i'm ending school like at 3.30pm or later. When night studies start, I think I can camp in school liao. Don't need to go home.

Already started to do renovations for my house, as in self done de lah. This weekend going to paint my room. YELLOW!! Nice colour, light and bright. Going to have a room of my own soon, after so long. But going to share with my brother next time because 4 sons and 2 room mah so split 2-2 lor.

I'm starting to feel a bit inferior to people. I don't know why but this is happening. I think I should just give up everything and concentrate on my studies. It is a choice which I have to make. Someone told me once that if God put me into this position, definately I will find ways to overcome the obstacles that come my way. I really hope this will come true because I am very confuse with everything now.

Right or wrong? I don't know.

I don't feel like blogging. Don't have the mood, don't have the inspiration.

Life just suck for me. I am a failure as a student, let alone a teacher. A secondary 5 student can't teacher secondary 2 maths, thats the greatest joke that anyone can make. I'm pratically just a failure in everything. Nothing can be done well for me. Well, don't need to come and tell me stuff that everything is going to be ok, cause I know it is not.

I will just stop here, nothing more to say...

I don't need you to be there for me, cause I don't love you anymore...

Is the faith really giving up on people, or just people giving up on their faith?

I must make myself clear to people. I go to church for the masses and practices is not because I have to go or there is someone making me stay but it is because, this is my faith and I believe that since God put me where I am, I should do the best to my ability. Although I maybe lousy in the things that I do, but I still trust that God will give me this strength and courage to go on to do the things and taks which He has set for me.

Why must this happen when nobody wants it to? If you are the commander of a base and everybody looks up to you. It will be your glory if the base do well. So even if we, the specialists and lower ranking officers do our best for the unit and base, the whole credits to still go to you and your good leadership. But, the bottomline is, what every you do, it reflects on the whole base and unit and not just on your ownself. Whatever the actions that were done by you, people look upon it as it has been done by the your men included. Is this fair to the people who are innocent?

My advice is, listen to those who are working on the frontline. They are the ones with real experiences and can give better advices to better the serve everyone.

This is all I have to say, if you think I am refering to you, then I am. If not then I am not. It is up to you to interpret the meaning behind everything.

You think you are so great? Think again.

I am really irritated by people who shows disrespect. Be it to someone of authority or some one with the same status. It is just so difficult to give a little respect and follow the rules set? I just cannot understand. Even if the person has no relations to me, I still feel very fed-up because of disrespect. I always want people to give me the due respect for everything that I do, thats why the way I communicate and carry out my actions, I will do it with enough knowledge of the consequences that comes with it.

I just can't go on following people, I cannot stand the way things are going on. It is just not me to do things which I don't want to do, just to follow the crowd. Even now I maybe going through the teenage stage of life where everybody wants to be cool, but for me, I have thought through everything and feel that being cool is not by following people but only by being yourself. From my primary school till now, I have thought that a lot of these friends of mine are cool in their actions they do but thinking through it all, they just sucks. Breaking the rules are cool? Going against and law is cool? I can't bring myself to do such stuff. Seriously, sorry to say but you guys suck.

One week holiday but it doesn't feel like a holiday to me. I still have school everyday and even tests during these days. Why can't we just have a break. Al though I know this is an important year but still people need to have sometime for themselves to relax and cool down. Forcing everything into a person is not the best way of making them do well. Trust me, the person must be commited to carry out the tasks given.

I need the motivation to go on in studies and training. Anybody willing to help me? I doubt bah, nobody will. Haix...

Anyway, good luck to AJChoir for their coming italy competition. Hope they win the top award!! And Jie, take care of yourself while you are there yeah? Don't worry about me :)

Went for the lenten program on saturday. I thought sharing wasn't my type of thing, but when I really sit down to share, I felt something inside me which forces me to say out whatever I feel. The feeling was really very weird, like just no control and no prepared speeches. Maybe this is the power of the Holy Spirit.

Investiture went smoothly overall which not much major problems except with the MC. He did a very lousy job. The planning of the programs after the investiture was not convyed properly and there was a major cock up. This can be used as a learning point for the juniors and seniors can take note of their mistakes and not make it again. I would rate a 7/10 for the investiture.

Just been promoted to MSG on saturday. Finally, the rank which I have been waiting for. The highest rank attainable in secondary school level. Congrates to me. Haha.