Why does this have to happen to me?

This isn't fair.

Didn't I put in enough effort?

This just sucks!!

The worst day of O Levels ever.

It has been almost a week into the O Level period already. Everybody has been studying hard and even now, they are still studying hard.

Let me talk about the papers that I had sat for. Last week was Science Practical and BK Paper 1. Science Practical was a total failure. I think I lost almost 10 marks, cause I could not the answer the theory questions for both Physics and Chemistry, really disappointed. Friday was BK, had to go until Tiong Bahru to take the paper, damn stupid. When we reach the MRT station, stress sia. You see so many students in uniform and there are all reading texts. Only people like us, slack slack and walk in. In the end, the paper was relatively easy, if you study. I only can confidently manage a few questions the rest, all gone.

Started off this week with BK Paper 2 and Chemistry. BK paper, I didn't put in effort, so I crap theough the whole paper and I think it was a failure. That one i'm not so particular, fail jiu fail lor. But for Chemisty, I was really quite sad lah. All the questions come out, I know I stduy before de lor then when i saw the questions, I just blanked out. I lost almost 15-20 marks can. That's damn bad lah, I doubt I can even get a B3 for Combine Science liao, since Practical and Chemistry has already been screwed up.

Tuesday had English. This is also another paper which i'm not very happy with. I think I wrote out of point for my section B, report writing. I never read the instructions properly, must persude the principal but I just keep on talking about the points give. This time I don't know what will happen man. Paper 2 was quite easy. Points could be found throughout the passage but I think I missed out afew points for summary cause my friends all got too many things to write but I got too little. LOL. And the examination end damn bloody late. We could only leave the hall at like 7pm? Crazy lah.

Yesterday was A Math Paper 1. I think this is the only paper i'm quite happy with and this is the only paper everybody says it was easy. LOL. I know I lost about 10 marks lah, cause I got my RV question wrong. The rest of my questions seem quite ok to me. After checking answers with my friends, almost all of our answers are the same, except for the RV lah. I hope paper 2 will be of the same standard as this, praying very hard man. I need an A1 for this, if not, I will die.

Going to have Geography later on. I haven't really start on anything. I just read through the main points and I hope I can smoke somethings later. I smoked through my Prelims and I did relatively well. Haha. So i'm hoping that it will work again for O Levels. Haha.

I really can't wait man, 19 more days. It is like kiling me, time passes so slow yet so fast. Ok, I know it is contradicting but this is exactly how I feel about time passing. There are so many things I want to do after O Levels. I have already had them all planned out or maybe not all of them. Haha. But still, I can't wait...

POKEMON CRAZE!!! Haha. Now my class people are crazy over pokemon again and I follow suit. LOL. It is like 5 more days before O Levels and we are like still playing pokemon. Haha. Too stress liao lah, need some games to relax ourselves (this is just an excues to play).

Went out with Selene and Daryl yesterday. I wanted to watch Mama Mia! so ask them along lor. I quite like the show a lot. Although viewers' ratings are low, I myself rate it 4/5 stars. I'm not a professional 'rate-er' so don't need to come and give me stupid comments on my rating of movies. The show was very funny, touching, sad and maybe abit of stupid. Haha. It has a mixture of feelings inside and sometimes it really touched me. I really admire the people who wrote this musical. It is like so dificult to write a story based on the lyrics of songs lor and they did it. Haha. And somemore it is like combination of quite a lot of songs. The cast sang quite well, or maybe it wasn't them singing, I don't know. But I still like it. :)

O Levels is just like 5 days away. It seem so near yet so far. 31 days left to the end of my Montfort education. I can't imagine, 11 years of my life, in Montfort. Actually come to think of it, I had many wonderful memories there. Thinking back at my primary school days, some of the things I did maybe stupid but it was just pure fun. We were all so young and innocent that time, everything we do was just for fun and enjoyment. But now, everything we do, there is/are always consequence(s) to think off. How I wish I could go back to the primary school period again.

I'm still very weak in my science. Now I understand what I want, I don't need people to teach me because i already know most of the stuff. The only thing I need to do is to sit down on my own and read to refresh myself. Which need a lot of self-discipline and I think I lack that a lot. Where can I find self-discipline? Haix...

Anxiously waiting for my Cadet Officer Course reply. I don't know if I can get in a not. It seems so impossible for me lor, just because of my physical. I met every criteria they have except the physical part and now I don't know if they will accept me. I will be damn disappointed if I don't get in. I have been waiting for this for like 5 years? From the start in secondary 1 until now, such a long wait already. I really don't want to miss this chance of entering. God, please help me.